June's Budget

A few days ago I went to Target to pick up a few items, including birthday/father's day cards. I believe the majority of the money I spent on that trip to Target was on cards.

June has always been a busy month for the Silberman family. Both Daddy Silberman and Mommy Silberman have birthdays and there is always the most important holiday, Father's Day. As the years have past June has gotten even busier. Three years ago we added another June birthday, brother-in-law Scott, and then two years ago that brother-in-law became a father. A year and a half ago I added a father-in-law into the equation of people I have to honor during the month a June.

Well this year another person needs to be honored this June and that is my wonderful husband Ben. On April 10, 2009 at 6:20 pm he became the father to a perfect, wonderful, beautiful baby girl, Adena Helen Weiss. She is the joy of my life and is perfect in every way.

So Many Changes Part II

Months back I had a lapse in reality and thought it would be a good idea to start a family and Ben had even a bigger lapse in judgment and agreed. Well months and months past and no luck. I had grown up with the notion that when you decided it was time to have baby you and your loved one would try to create a baby and within in months you would be pregnant. That notion quickly flew out the window. I finally saw a doctor in June and she gave me a magic pill. I was told that it may still take a few months on this pill to get pregnant.

Well it is now July and I finally decided to do something about my chronic heartburn. I saw a doctor and he thought it would be great idea to stick a tiny camera down my throat. When I got to the surgery center the nurse made me take a pregnancy test which came back negative. I had the procedure and went home.

A few days later, a Friday, I woke up for another fun filled day at work. The night before I had not been feeling well and now had a canker sore. I had one home pregnancy test and since I was debating whether or not to take it I decided it was time to use it so I could stop thinking about it. Well, I took it and went about getting ready for my day. Three minutes later I went back to look at it and I saw something I thought I would never ever see....a faint line. I WAS PREGNANT!!!

I started shaking and screaming my words of joy to the dogs. No one else was around. Well, what is a girl to do at this point? Well I called my mother. After talking to her I called the father to be who had very little reaction to the news.

Months have passed and I am now almost 11 weeks pregnant. I am due Easter Sunday and since I am Jewish I am free and have nothing else to do that day. I am still in shock that I am going to be a mother. Miracles do happen.

So Many Changes

So many changes have happened in the last three months. I moved to Illinois, I got married, got a new job and now, officially, I am no longer Tammy Silberman of Wisconsin. I am now Tammy Weiss of Illinois.












But I am still Tammy Weiss the Packer Fan!

Rocky Start

The year 2008 has already gotten off to a rocky start. Lately I have been feeling very uninspired, however, I felt the need to share this bit of sad news in the hope that all would keep this family in their prayers.

This past Saturday the Chicago police department pulled the body of one of my former classmates out of Lake Michigan. Robyn Bercovici was only 27 and a social worker in downtown Chicago. They have declared it a drowning but are unsure if it was suicide or murder.

I can only imagine the pain and confusion the family is in during such a horrible time. I hope they know that they are in my thoughts and the thoughts of many others.

I AM BLESSED

I can only imagine that it is due to the time of the year but lately I have found myself reflecting on all the things that I have been blessed with. This year I have been extremely lucky for most of my blessings have come in the form of people; people that have touched my life and have made it so much better.

I am most grateful and most lucky to be blessed with two wonderful, amazing and supportive parents. If it was not for them believing in me and standing by my side I would not be where I am today.



My mother is an amazing woman. She not only supports my father, my sister and me, but she is always there to lend a hand to her mother or a dear friend. If someday I can be half the mother she is, I will have achieved more than I can ever imagine. On top of all that she has now proven that she can be a wonderful and loving grandmother. (That includes a grandmother to Simon and Milo)



My father....what can I say about my father. To me he is one of the most amazing human beings I have ever had the honor of knowing. He has achieved so much; a doctor, kayaker, writer, photographer, black belt in judo, sailor...... I could keep going on. However, his most impressive achievement is having been and continuing to be an incredible father.










On top of those two unbelievable family members I was also blessed with being the little sister of Carri, a.k.a Kiki.



There have been times where I could have killed her. There have been times in which I thought I would never speak to her again, but she is my life. I would do anything for my sister and I would like to believe the same hold trues for her. I look up to her and look towards her for support. It brings me great joy when she tells me that she loves me and even bigger joy when i get to see her. She also blessed me this year with making me an aunt.





I think the picture says it all.


Lastly, my most important, amazing, wonderful, memorable, blessing came on October 21st. I got to marry Ben,



He is the most outstanding man. I don't look up to him; I look towards him. I look towards him for support and advice. He is truly my equal. I am thankful everyday that he married me and that I get to spend the rest of my life with him. I hope someday he can realize what he means to me and how much having him in my life is a blessing. More over, I hope he knows he is my life.

Just So Unsure

This blog is just a way for me to vent. It does not matter if my readers know what I am talking about nor if they give me advice, what matters is if they just listen and nod their heads.
How do you know what to do when you come to a crossroad in life? What do you do when your heart and gut tells you to go left and everyone else is telling you to go right?
I believe in life you can be on more then one path at a time. I have been on many and a lot of them I do not want to be on anymore. I am done with the drama, I am done with being an adolescent. I want to be married, I want to be with my husband, I want Ben and I to be like a family, I want to find my niche.
Well, I have a lot on my mind that I need to figure out and it sucks that I need to do it alone. However, thanks for listening and most of all thanks for nodding your heading and saying it's okay.

Old Married Lady

If you have read my other blogs and if you can figure out how a calendar works, then you are probably well aware that I am no longer Ms. Silberman, but I have now taken on the new role of Mrs. Weiss. I am loving and enjoying every moment of it, but most of all I feel like everything is just right. Not only am I happy, comfortable, and content, I also can't wait to see what our new life together brings us. Thanks to everyone that has supported us and will continue.







Lots of Love
Tammy Weiss